It seems that in my life and in many of those around me right now, fear rules faith. It seems that no matter what confidence we had yesterday or even an hour ago is easily crushed as we read another news story or another thought enters our mind. For so long in my own life fear was a way of life and I never stepped out of that place. I felt that it was my duty to worry over everything because somehow that would help solve the problem. Over time my rational brain kicked in and I realized my relationship with fear had to change. Having seen the vast control had over every aspect of my life I knew it would be a lot of work and take a lot of time to retrain my brain to take a different path.
After considering my resources and seeing the effectiveness of the twelve step addiction recovery program I decided to use the program to overcome my addiction to fear and worry for I knew I was powerless and would need a higher power to find a way out and up. The path was slow and discouraging. I was so attached to fear- it had become my comfort blanket- my safe place. As I worked each step I came see that there was hope. I chose to hold the hand of faith instead of fear and step into the darkness. It was so freeing!
Just as in all long-time patterns in our lives, sometimes relapses happen. When they do I look to an affirmation I learned along my path, "You're back in your old belief system again. I understand this is tough. I know how you feel. Be not afraid and only believe. Trust Him above what your eyes see." This helps to recenter me and remind me that I can do hard things and that I know how to overcome fear. My hope is that these thoughts might be a strength to you as well!
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